Oh hey there! The urge to write to you surged again and I did not wanna suppress it like every time. A lot has changed over the past couple of months, which you would have known if you were in my close circle of friends.
I became a very private person, I deleted Instagram 6 months ago. I started valuing my privacy and internal peace a lot. I got back to the gym, I started spending more time in nature, sleeping very early, enjoying sunrises, and reading more books. Among other things.
I set a goal for myself to read a book every month in 2023. I started with “Getting to Yes” by Roger Fisher and Willian Ury. I gave it 3 stars on GoodReads. Not bad I would say and I highly recommend it if you wanna learn more about negotiating.
I suffered from severe depression and anxiety in the past couple of months and December was the worst. It was excruciatingly hard to live and I tried my best to survive and fight the urge to disappear. I am writing this as of Feb 1st and looking back at January, I am quite satisfied with how things went and how I coped with mental health.
It has been quite a journey but meditating and journaling really helped me reflect and be proactive.
It’s Feb 9th today and I am not even sure if I will post this at all. Mental health is a journey and yesterday I faced another bump. I got rejected yet by another company after the final round of interviews. I really thought that I had this one in the pocket, but turns out that I didn’t. It literally caught me off guard but I am so tired of the job hunt process. I don’t like to show it but I really am very tired. I have been job hunting for around 8 months now and no matter how mentally strong you are, the rejections get to you. I try to stay positive and focus on the bigger picture but the voices inside my head are starting to get mean and I don’t like that.
I don’t want to turn this into a self-pitying post but I have more work to do on myself and a lot of self-discovery I guess. I want to keep my eyes on the goal and enjoy the journey. Talking about eyes, I hope you enjoyed the pictures I shared in this piece from my last roll. Sur ce, I would like to share my French playlist that I find empowering and helpful to go through this shit, enjoy! LINK: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2l6MiQgzkb0JURjSiluPCv?si=03be84d55a284952
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